june

its my month....
very soon i be 27.
and all of a sudden i m thinking of what have i achieved?
i think i have achieved alot.
but the last thing on my list is money.
haiz, how long more to have a more substaintial income?
its been a long time since i have write here.
nothing much happen over these period.
still doing the same thing- gym, tennis, vb, running, movies, etc
just a additional thing i m picking up, the art of make up.
hope i can do well for that.
been quite stress about that

a thought:
sometimes i just wonder why close frens drift apart.
hate this feelings...
hope everything is fine for you.

so i noe

i thought when i felt tat i m not been appreciated is jus because i tink too much n over sensitive. but today i realise i m not been over sensitive.
i m totally unappreciated. not even tat, more than under appreciated...
i m all angry, sad, frustrated, helpless, disouraged, insulted.
once again i hear n c words tat i dunt deserve at all.
i thght u realise u shldnt treat me tat way again
but once again u did...

i m totally hurted
deeper

yes i deserved
idiot

finally

although its jus one song _)
happy


max

i have learnt a new lesson today

tere isnt much point workin yr ass off durin cny period as it doesnt pay off both ways... both in money aspect n appreciaton aspect
it will never b enough...
work n work n work
still not enough... will b even blame for not takin in more clients when i already only haf time to go toilet twice.
ha funny? i tink i find myself pretty stupid.
thks to the one who i love... i supposed... shall revise it thoroughly.

yah for e first time i thght the person is not worth for my love.
i agreed.
did i say all tis out of spite?or not... but i really do tink so...
hurting as it is ...
life still goes on

thks for wakin me up by sayin all tese hurtful comments.
it makes me realise how idiot i m to u
how DIGUSTING i m to u
how unworthy to u

u deserve better ones
hope u can find then
gd luck to someone who dun even noe e very basic of showin love upfront

life

its e same.


...

is e world full of sadness

i hope u b fine, hope u feel better
stay strong, n b positive


- tis is what i would like to tell my vocal trainer... nicole


i tink its sometin i mus tell myself too



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there are many paths in life, all leading in every which way.
at times it may be too dark to see the paths, or we may choose the paths that says no entry.however the paths we choose make for the people that we are.
without this walk in life we get bored tired, n stagnant.we lose that spark that every human being jas, that light, that life.
be who you wan to be, walk where u wana walk, say wat u wana say love who u wana love and make life what you wan to make it.
dun wait till it is too late to do the tings you never had the courage to do before. live it, dun regret it.
when the fight begins himself, a man's worth someting,remember that everyting you do in life whether positively or negatively depends entirely on you.be motivated, haf faith. you always had & always noe tis: you are not alone

is this wat i need to live with?

had been havin this headache for many days
yest finally went to c e doc,,,
the medicine isnt workin
went again today
doc say i most likely too stress causing tis migraine
how can i not b stress?
i been stress for so long
n now e headache is here
migraine never really go away
i m worried i will haf tis kind of headache every now n then from now on
e poudnin is like hell
it makes my mind very stressful
sleepless nights
feelin uptight
stress

i must learn to relax.
haf a peace of mind