i do feel it

我以为我会哭
但是我没有
我只是怔怔望着你的脚步
给你我最后的祝福
这何尝不是一种领悟
让我把自己看清楚
虽然那共爱的痛苦
将日日夜夜
在我灵魂最深处
我以为我会报复
但是我没有
当我看到我深爱过的男人
竟然像孩子一样无助
这何尝不是一种领悟
让你把自己看清楚
被爱是奢侈的幸福
可惜你从来不在乎
啊!一段感情就此结束
啊!一颗心眼看要荒芜
我们的爱若是错误
愿你我没有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出
就应该满足
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首来时路的每一步
都走的好孤独
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚 任意追逐
别再为爱受苦
我以为我会报复
但是我没有
当我看到我深爱过的男人
竟然像孩子一样无助
这何尝不是一种领悟
让你把自己看清楚
被爱是奢侈的幸福
可惜你从来不在乎
啊!一段感情就此结束
啊!一颗心眼看要荒芜
我们的爱若是错误
愿你我没有白白受苦
若曾真心真意付出
就应该满足
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首来时路的每一步
都走的好孤独
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚 任意追逐
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只是我回首来时路的每一步
都走的好孤独
啊!多么痛的领悟
你曾是我的全部
只愿你挣脱情的枷锁
爱的束缚 任意追逐
别再为爱受苦

busy day
lonely day
sad day

tats my saturday


hope sunday is a better day

爱情怎么让每个人 都心碎

城市一片漆黑
谁都不能看见谁
除非紧紧依偎
我让自己喝醉
没有你我就不能入睡
整夜又整夜的徘徊
我说过我绝对
不会后悔
寂寞是被原谅的罪
爱情怎么让每个人
都心碎
怎么去安慰
爱情怎么让每个人
都流泪
你的泪烫伤我的脸
那一次我尝到伤悲
我的泪烫伤我的脸
从此就再也说不出
我爱谁

in the middle of the night

i wana sleep
i cant
i wana stop having thoughts that are constantly running in my mind
i cant
and i m staring into the computer screen not knowin wat to type






..........

after all this while

so much have change, yet it seems so much is still the same.
it has been so long... but why haven i gotten use to it? shoudlnt i?
there is still as many questions that is awaiting answers...
sometimes i m just convinced that there isnt answers to them...
but at many times... i m still waiting...
time really flies...
very soon it be the end of 2010 ...

i realy wonder what is ahead for me
yah many people will tell me... its u ... me who will detemine wats ahead for me.
but do u really tink so?
is it so simple to jus move on and plan ahead?

as each day passes... i can sense the loneliness that lies ahead comes closer... its scary
but i m askin myself?why m i so afraid of loneliness? what is tere to be afraid of?
but i do fear

they are things that changes over time
but how many of these things can we let go ? and how many of these things we will be holdin on so tightly even though we noe that it has changed... to the better?i aint too sure

cancerian yes i m ... but y cant i b like those not so emotional cancerian?

when will i grow out of all these?

when will i stop feeling tis way?

i miss

june

its my month....
very soon i be 27.
and all of a sudden i m thinking of what have i achieved?
i think i have achieved alot.
but the last thing on my list is money.
haiz, how long more to have a more substaintial income?
its been a long time since i have write here.
nothing much happen over these period.
still doing the same thing- gym, tennis, vb, running, movies, etc
just a additional thing i m picking up, the art of make up.
hope i can do well for that.
been quite stress about that

a thought:
sometimes i just wonder why close frens drift apart.
hate this feelings...
hope everything is fine for you.

so i noe

i thought when i felt tat i m not been appreciated is jus because i tink too much n over sensitive. but today i realise i m not been over sensitive.
i m totally unappreciated. not even tat, more than under appreciated...
i m all angry, sad, frustrated, helpless, disouraged, insulted.
once again i hear n c words tat i dunt deserve at all.
i thght u realise u shldnt treat me tat way again
but once again u did...

i m totally hurted
deeper

yes i deserved
idiot