8.29.2007

gd luck

i m askin myself many questions recently
is it worth goin on?i dono
is it goin to work?i dono
but now i ve no choice but to go on
if things remains e same, i doubt so its gona work
i hope it will improve
me by my own, i haf limted strengths
i hope i can do more... n make it work. but i ve tried my best
mayb my best isnt gd enough?
i dono
i fear e future...
i fear wat will happen
but fear isnt bringin me anywhere
so don fear?
its hard not to
cos my future lies in tis
i dono
i guess not only me myself havin doubts
i told u ... but will u listen?
i hope u will b rite
all i can do is to haf faith n hope it all works.
all e best to tis

8.15.2007

...

dono...
jus heard abt my close girl fren...
y ended?does everyting comes to an end?
i dono if its for everyones benefit.
i hope so.
life isnt e same anymore
n i wonder how long this will go on...
sometimes dont we jus wished to b a kid again?
eat, sleep, play is all we noe?
tinkin of tat makes me smile- finally :)
end of e day ... m i smiling?

spend all your time waiting for that second chance, for a break that will make it oki,
there is always a reason to feel not gd enough and its hard at the end of the day,
i need some distrcations, oh beautiful release, memory seeps from my veins,
let me be empty and weightless and mayb i will find some peace tonight,
in the arms of an angel, fly away from here, from this dark cold hotel room and the endlessness that you fear, your are pulled from the wreakage of your slient riverie. you re in the arms of the angel, may you find some comort here, so tired of the straight line and everywhere you turn, theres vultures n thieves at your back and the storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lie, that you make up for all that you lack, it dont make a difference, escaping one last time, its easier to believe in this sweet madness oh, this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees, you re in the arms of the angel,
may you find some comfort here

8.05.2007

why?

it seems like god has play a joke on me
i haf achieve nothing
its all back to the start again
can i do it all over again?

i hope i can
i hope i can
i hope i can